有没有这么一个人 你会在听到他的名字时忽然变得沉默~

P/s: it is taken from my lovely fren, called Everlyn

this expressed from her, and me as well....

it is very match toward us as we are having the same "feeling"...haha

it is so "meaningful" and wish to share with u all~

ENJOY^^

有没有这么一个人 

你会在想起他时不自觉地上扬了嘴角

有没有这么一个人

你会在听到他的名字时忽然变得沉默

有没有这么一个人

你会在独自一人时想他想到哭泣，却在看见他时故作无所谓地笑

生命中有太多的美好与感动

但是你宁愿为了那个人而失落伤感，甚至濒临崩溃

你会在日记上写下大段大段曾经不属于你的失落伤感

会在听到某句歌词那么贴切地唱出你的心声时失声痛苦

会在夜里梦到他冷漠的表情，从夜里哭醒过来……甚至更多更多

有没有这么一个人

你感谢上天让你遇见了他，你觉得只要看见他就是一种幸福

有没有这么一个人

你无数次说着要放弃，但终究还是舍不得

有没有这么一个人

你为他浪费了青春错过了爱情，却依旧傻傻地守候，即使你知道不管等多久他依旧不会回头

喜欢他的每一天对你来说都是一种折磨

每一分每一秒。都夹杂着痛苦与甜蜜

即使痛苦一次次让你落泪。即使你知道甜蜜只是你安慰自己的假象。

可你依旧学不会放手

你说你认了

你说你从喜欢上他那刻起就认输了

你说。

[你看，我输到心都空了。]

有没有这么一个人

会让你觉得是老天派来克你的，可是你却心甘情愿地被伤害，即使你知道你会遍体鳞伤

有没有这么一个人

你无数次希望自己没有喜欢过他，甚至从未认识过他

但是如果老天给你一次机会回到过去，你依旧会选择喜欢他，甚至连一丝犹豫都没有

有没有这么一个人

你不知道他究竟是不是你生命中的那个唯一

你不确定自己是在错误的时间遇见了对的人

还是在对的时间遇见了错误的人…

你能确定的只有你喜欢他。但是他不喜欢你

朋友不止一次为你抱不平

他们劝你放弃

他们说他不值得你为

他伤心他们说。[他有什么好？]

可是你却为他抱不平

你说他值得

你说他很好很好

你说。[只是我不够好罢了。]

很可笑呵。

明明。

明明你知道你很好

明明你知道朋友是心疼你才会这么说

明明你知道你放弃了对彼此都好

可是你就是不想放弃…

[因为他就是他啊。独一无二的他啊]...

由始至终你只是默默的看着。想着。喜欢着…

只是因为害怕你的喜欢会带来他的不安

于是你深藏起自己的感受，把难过伤感都往肚子里咽

你觉得自己再难过也好过让他难受

那会让你心疼

单恋让人变得卑微

你甚至从不奢求他喜欢你

你只希望他不要剥夺你喜欢他的权利

你对他那么好

好到人人都替你惋惜

好到他的朋友羡慕不已

好到喜欢的那个他愧疚得不知所措……

  

可是人生有太多的遗憾

比如有人爱你爱得热烈专注，你却无法接受他的好心

比如你爱那人爱得歇斯底里精疲力竭，他却只能对你说[对不起]

[你曾经那么相信他是你的幸福。可是他的幸福不是你。]

你认为这么单恋也不错

你对自己说。[喜欢是一个人的事情。]

那么你为什么还会一次又一次难过地流下眼泪？

心里的疼痛一次又一次地折磨着你

于是你终归是累了

真的累了你终于狠下心要放弃了

你说。

[不是不爱了。是爱不起了。]

你说。

[付出了那么多。到头来却只是让彼此都不快乐……虽然依旧舍不得。但是我爱他。所以我舍不得他不幸福。]

你说。

[一个人的爱情。你让我怎么天长地久？]

但是你又说，说得那么决绝

你说，[如果再给我一次机会，让我回到从前，我依旧会选择不顾一切地爱上你。]

你说，[即使曾那么痛苦，我依旧感谢能够遇见你。遇见你。是我最大的幸运。]

你说。[我会记得，我曾那么深刻地爱过一个人。]

你知道你必须放下。

因为未来的路还很长。而他给不了你你要的幸福

但是你还是会舍不得

因为你不知道

以后还能不能遇见一个人，能让你像现在爱他一样疯狂而执着地爱着那个人

能不能像喜欢他一样用尽全力.不求回报地喜欢那个人...

你只知道，他是你心里一道无法愈合的伤口

你无法忘记，只是因为他曾经让你那么深刻地爱过、伤过、痛过

于是。

你把他埋在心里的一个角落

深深地、深深地

怕一不小心触及，会引来刺骨的疼痛

然后你笑着对他说：

[对不起。亲爱的我不爱你了。]

♥ Mo0d~♥

P/s: photo----farewell for LOTION~^^

~Midvalley~

"ME, PikYing, SunSun, Kang & Lotion"

22/Jan/2011

it is so special date,

as 22 = my birthday date...hahaa 

[but NOT on JAN..XP

we ate JANpanese Fo0d....Nice??..okok loh~haha

"Sho0ting time"----for memories~♥♥♥
those are Chinese New Year decoration~
"lion dance"
as CNY is coming so0n....
i wan angpau angpau= "$$$ inside red packet"

the guy is LOTION ya...^^
or can call him "Sushi" to0...
he is going to fly so0n~~

Today is a cloudy day~~[overcast sky]...
it just like my mo0d~~~
"Cloudy" ONLY but NOT "RAining" luckily....[actually it is going to rain so0n...Xp]
As i LOST "Something"....
the STH is important to me, 
so meaningful for me...
DO u guys have any "STH" tat very memorable ....
[STH here can be referred to people/ stuff/ love/ friends/ money/ anything else]^^

♥~sun, ying, chern~♥
Go0d fren forever o...^^

♥

im a very mo0dy person~~ are u??^^
mo0dy till sad---cry-----smile----laugh....SUDDENLY~
when im VERY/ SUPER sad for STH, 
i can CRy for many days, hours, minutes which UNABLE to CONTROL!!
as my heart reli reli reli super sad...[no one can understand me....T^T]
feel weird??[maybe u r the 1 like me] haha
actually we are NOT tat MOODY, just we r SUPER SAD!!!><  [heart bleeding.....hehe]

"fisherman"
going to catch fish~~
where is our boat??
ying, fast fast wear ur "HAt" la....Xp

♥

♥knock knock knock...
pls open the "traditional do0r"..
give some CNY stuff....haha
"Happy Chinese New year"...

See...how naughty am i~~~hiak hiak...Xp
climb climb climb~~

i always feel tat, CRYING is the best way for me [i like to cry???]
as i have no other ways to solve it, SO can CRY only~~ [but im not useless & timid!!!]
unless, the STH~^^
People cry for STH, right???
so do i.....
"Let it flow, i cant COntrol, i lost my soul....so let it flow"...haha
Can i do it???


i wanna be so strong, dear~~
who gonna to help me???
is it only " the GOD"?
or u should say : there is no other ways, u have to help urself...
[GOd, i knew tat.......it's difficult, right?]

 ♥Having "tea time"

order pls~~~hehe♥

"You know when he have found his princess,
so you can only have a smile on your face,
but in your heart as well. "
as  we wish happiness to them.....
will u guys do the same thing???
more girls or more boys had tat experience???


"♥ is missing someone whenever you're apart, 
but somehow feeling warm inside because you're close in heart. "
yea yea yea~~~tats right~~~
even lost the "STH", but Still Close in my heart.....as we are having ♥...
i reli cant understand people who can live without ♥???
is it because they are to0 STRONG????


OMG....
Without ♥, what are we worth?  
RM0.10!
it is NOT even worth of a SWEET tat "walking around lonely". 

what i want now is: 
"If I had a single flower for every time I think about you, I could walk forever in my garden."
i think this is a GOOD way to cure lovesickness eh~~[yearning]~haha
it is MADness, right??
if NOT madness, tats NOT ♥....


♥ is STH tat------If you're alone, I'll be your shadow.  
--------If you want to cry, I'll be your shoulder.  
--------If you want a hug, I'll be your pillow.  
--------If you need to be happy, I'll be your smile.  
----But anytime you need me, I'll just be me.  

Snocker-ing time again~~

wiweet~~sexy gal.....^^

come on....fight Fight fight like a FRen....Xp
after it, we watched movie & it called "HOMECOMING"
a S'pore movie....nice to laugh...hahaa...
~ENDING~

~~Busy~~

what am i busy on???
~Busy "Work"~ [im still studying]
this is my First week,
NO more "Honeymo0n" for NOW....[unlike past few semesters]
busy on study....
busy on assignments that are time consuming, but useful in the future [i guess]haha~
im not sure is it educationally valuable? 
many procedures or paperwork have to be done in some specific DAEDline......


Assignments/ Projects have to be done in group.....
which is more preferable???
gruop or individual???
Coming together is a beginning,
Keeping together is progress,
Working together is success. 
i dun care is it group or individual~~~
at least-----i wan complete it in "Well Done"...[excellent].....


The aim of education should be to teach us rather how to think, 
than what to think,
rather to improve our minds, 
so as to enable us to think for ourselves, 
than to load the memory with thoughts of other men.  


why there r so many ppl to get a degree [at least]...or even master??
why ppl study hard & to get a Go0d result???
for family???
for urself???
for future???
for BF/GF???
for Money???
for being Millionaire o Billionaire???haha
we study hard as we desired sth..right???
of course we desired sth, if nt u r NOT human.....^^
for me, im NOT sure....
i duno why am i studying....
maybe im affected by the current environment...[must study]
of course it for my future as well....


My parents told me, 
"Finish your dinner.  People in China and India are starving."  
same as:  
 "Finish your homework.  People in India and China are starving for your job." 


one of my subjects have to read NEWS Everyday....
unfortunately is---i dun have the habit of reading news...
NOW, i have to start reading although im LAZY...T^T
it reli forced by Education Environment....
i think tats go0d to start from now [i know its quite late to started from now]hehe

Constellation*****[Horoscope] ^^ ~6~

January 2011 Horoscope: 

Aries

Aries must be especially cautious this month in finance. While the month starts off with the New Moon in Capricorn, which highlights career and success, it is likely you will be approached for a loan or a handout. By the 22nd of the month, Jupiter arrives and you are once again in good aura and a magnet for good fortune. Past relationships may rekindle around the third week of the month.[i hope so...^^]

Taurus

With Venus in Scorpio the first week of January, single Taurus’ may find that whirlwind romance, especially on the 4 th. For coupled Taurus’ this is the perfect time to spend together. With the Full Moon in Cancer on the 19 th travel- either business or pleasure may be in the picture for the Taurus. Jupiter enters Aries on the 22 nd making this an ideal time for the Taurus to take time for themselves.

Gemini

During the beginning of this month you might have the opportunity of having a better position in your current job, or even finding something new.  However, you need to be careful when considering making any major purchases or investments.   Mars will be in Aquarius on the 15th bringing you options for fun and adventure. Travel may be possible.  Mercury and Venus in Sagittarius allow you a great chance to develop rewarding personal and business relationships.

Cancer 

This is a month of energy and initiatives for Cancerians. Personal relationships may pose challenges but with calm mind you should eventually be able to get to the root cause. Also look forward to some delightful moments in relationships around the Full Moon. With Jupiter and Uranus in your solar 9 th house, you are set for a business travel or vacation. You can also expect fortunate connections during this time but be wary especially if you are befriending someone online. Money-wise the next 4 months will be the most beneficial, make hay while sun shines.

Leo 

Career people will have heavy workload and stricter deadlines to meet. Despite this there will be ample opportunities for socializing. Singles may find dating relationships exciting. Family relationships can be quite uplifting but patience and understanding is required to prevent flare-ups. Heavier workload also indicates extra cash and financially you will be getting the break you are hoping for a long time through gift or cash from relatives or from your partner’s side. Take a chance with lottery in the first week and you may just get lucky.

Virgo 

Budget may overstretch this month, spend carefully. You will have everything on the cards – children, social events, hobbies as well as investments. You will meet a lucky contact during socializing so indulge in it. Romantic opportunities will crop up and those in serious relationships may finally decide to tie the knot. Married couples may have new additions coming along. Money will start flowing your way as you and partner or both will gain through raise or bonus.

Libra

Friendships and family are the focus this month. Libra will enjoy socializing and family days in January. Single Libras may find romance. For coupled Libras commitment may be in the picture, such as engagement. Money will increase with a bonus, a raise or some other means.

Scorpio 

A cold or virus may occur this month. Stay warm, and take plenty of Vitamin C and get plenty of rest. Travel will highlight January- make arrangements for travel this spring. Relationships will be up and down this month. However, with Jupiter in Pisces on 21 st your social life boosts! Career rewards may be in the picture.

Sagittarius

Finances will be a hotspot. Friendship and money isn’t really the right mix, lend to a pal and you may never be repaid. For 4 weeks from January 7 th your charm and words will impress everyone and you get to widen your circle of friends and acquaintances. One amongst them will be a lucky charm for you. Whirlwind romance is quite possible with more than one partner. Money-wise there will be increase in family funds through a raise for you or your partner. People wanting to sell house will find the right buyer this week.

Capricorn

Career may pose challenges, try to get to the root cause or even with a job change you will find yourself in the same situation. Home front will be favorable and you will feel like spending all your time with loved ones and indulge in home improvement and decorating activities. Relationships will be at its best for couples and those not yet committed may enter into engagement. Bank balance will increase prompting purchases of big items like electronics and furnishings, however shop with care.


Aquarius 
You may have small health issues like cold and flu take special care of yourself; have a healthy diet and good sleep. Travel may be prone to delays, postpone if you can. Luck favors you in money matters this month, buy a lottery ticket and you may get lucky. The next four months will be fast paced with emails, calls and errands drowning you. Try to keep a calendar to avoid missing things. You will have a active social and may find a new dating interest. You will benefit financially from the extra efforts you put in at work.

Pisces

For the most part of the month, Pisces experience smooth sailing. A friend however may disappoint you. Be firm and if they are asking for a money loan, don’t hesitate to say no. Jupiter enters Aries on the 22nd which is likely to increase your bank balance by early June. Continue to save rather than spend. With the January 4 th New Moon in Capricorn it is a great time to enhance your social scene. For single Pisces romantic opportunities are likely.

get more info from: http://www.horoscopes-love.eu/aries-2011-horoscope.php

Constellation*****[Horoscope] ^^ ~5~

P/s: photos- yam cha with friends...^^ ♥

[deng deng deng deng~~~

there r some "NEW" friends come out wif my blog leh..

Excited???

2 boys n 1 gal...

"egg tatt", "gold fish" & "ice co0l"

"nice to meet u"...Xp]

admit tat we ♥ to take pic la...hahaa

2day still with the better mo0d~~
not worse as previous~^^
if u read my previous posts,
u gt wat im saying..^^

1. Girl does not depend of their boyfriend:

First Scorpio (prove/ show their capability)
Second Sagittarius (Good strong independent, Do not love being long-winded)
Third Aries (impatient, not a "small woman")
Fourth Aquarius  (implicit dependence, Careful selection of her boyfriend)
Fifth Capricorn (autonomous self, save money for themselves)

******

I can forgive, 

but I cannot forget, 

is only another way of saying, I will not forgive.  [but it will hide in my heart]

Forgiveness ought to be like a cancelled note,

the note is torn in two & burned up,

so that it never can be shown against one. 

what i know is~

forgiveness does not change the past, 

but it does enlarge the future. 

this buddy....
reli long time no see him....
he is ARIEs to0...
♥

he is "EGg tatt"
i ♥ to eat....Xp

2. Girls who like to pretend to be strong: [actually not strong at all...Xp]
first Sagittarius (cux tell = useless)
Second Scorpio (must forget the past/ overcome)
Third Capricorn (feel ashamed to cry)
Fourth Leo (stubborn and try to be brave)
Fifth Gemini (do not care at the surface [actually care so much])

tis buddy to0...long time no see...^^

he is "Gold FIsh"..
KIdS "♥" him so much....XP

3. countersign agreement before marriage 
First Aquarius (better deal clearly with some things)
Second Taurus (talk about the details carefully before enjoy 2gether)
Third Virgo
Fourth Scorpio (to protect their rights)
Fifth Capricorn (black and white for peace of mind)

"Tiang Moi"....haha

long time no see to0...Xp
she is "ICE CO0l"~~~
she is not co0l at all....hehe

4. will find LOVER like father-type [refer to girls]
First Cancer (love to be his "daughter")
The second Taurus ("old man" is good as they more steady)
Third Aries (find back girl nature/ natural character)
Fourth Libra (logical dependency)
Fifth Pisces (which can be true like a baby)

hexagon star~~which is my hand???^^

as u can see, we r "gambling"...hahaa
gt caught!!!!!
POlis dun catch us...
cux we r just playing some games wif the poker cards....
the games: nt ONLY about win & lose....
we have the rules & regulation for LOSER...
"heavy punishment"..hahaaa

5. the most willing to help somebody achieve success in LOVE/ affection/ feeling...
[although they r not able to have]
[willing to bring a romance to a happy ending]
First Gemini
Second Capricorn (reasonable assessment of the severity)
Third Sagittarius (suitable thn get 2gether, not suitable thn apart)
Fourth Aquarius (not forcing at all)
Fifth Libra (pretending graceful bearing)

♥we made the funny ugly face.....for fun...
~[wat i want to say is: thx u guys~
cux of u, my heart feels better~
yea, u all did ntg...
but...accompanied me...thx..
♥]~

i SAD as i listen to my heart, and not the voices in my head.

Heavy hearts, like heavy clouds in the sky,

are best relieved by the letting of a little water~~^^

i wish my Laughter through tears, 

NOT crying through tears again.....

The best day of your life is the one on which you decide your life is your own.  

[oh my..i have to decide my own life to0 for the best day with my OPTIMISTIC]

No apologies or any excuses.  

No one to lean on, rely on, or blame.  

It is an amazing journey & you alone are responsible for it.  

This is the day your life really begins.  

[i have chosen o decided, i have to take the responsible even it seems a BAD decision~]

i un i  have to decide what my highest priorities are and to be courage....

Pleasantly, smilingly, non-apologetically 

to say NO to somethings. [ i think i can i can..^^]

And the way to do that is by having a bigger 'yes' burning inside.  

Feelings of being understood is a happy, 
waiting to be understood is lonely!

[SO, i should be HAPPY]~